right now

i sit somewhere in between so many things and i’m not quite sure how to explain other than to keep writing and hope some sort of explanation comes across as i listen to familiar music drinking beer hanging on the couch with my dog feeling the incredible lightness of being in no exact place or moment in time i just am here right now and here is there and there is there yet no where at all and it’s truly a matter of how i perceive it am i at peace or somewhat unsettled it’s entirely up to me

Craig’s 65th

so many thoughts running through my head and all things are beautiful and different was at a strip club to celebrate my neighbor’s birthday and had the best night i’ve had in a while, because of the company and because i was around women though they are not quite my type i still enjoyed their athleticism and essence as i drank my beer and conversed with my birthday friend’s sister we had an amazing time and i am sitting here now smiling because of it

breathe and let go and I will show you the way
you can’t contemplate
just who and how I am
in this moment
there will come a time
when everything rhymes
and it all makes sense
so until then
breathe and let go and I will show you the way
you have no idea
just who and how I am
in this moment
but there will come a time
when everything rhymes
and it all makes sense
so until then
have faith
simply see how close freedom sings
and then run with it run to the open door
walk in the fields and roam the squares
light a wanderlust fire in the air
be the you who dares

Alison

i fell so deeply in love with you that when you stopped talking i began to listen….i finally heard what you were saying and i realized you were the one…but sometimes the moment isn’t right and the love that was so strong can be fooled by the lessons yet to learn…the heart will hurt…and in that time of knowing, you come into my mind and i wonder how you are, i’m not blind and i don’t really think we could find the time again to see where we could grow….i know, i know…i know…if you ever need someone i’m here for you…if you ever want to talk just call me and ill pick up the phone…i’m great alone but you were the one who got away, and i measure everyone by how you made me feel so loved and cared for and i adore you….i always will

i wrap myself in a river flowing, always knowing, never showing fear, riding it like a wave onto the shore, running headlong into it and seeing through it i surf on the waves and roll with the tide and am one with the river that flows with the ocean that rolls and crashes to the shore then backs into itself or stays upon the sands of timelessness…

thinking about the rain as i listen to it falling, a very rare event in southern california….been over 6 months now and then there is this deluge so we prepare for flooding and winds and backed up traffic…and the clearing of the dust and grit and grime…and the channeling of the wonderful energy it brings…and we celebrate and we calibrate and we masturbate to it’s rhythm…and we sense something deeper than the obvious significance of the event

embrace all of the things you are apt to let go of now, keep all of the love you feel close and walk with a confident step…those of you who may need some time, take it, others, follow your heart now, be afraid but continue, because this is your finest hour and every moment like this will be so…the most awesome time of your life